What happened to the old blog? What happens now?


What happened to the old blog? What happens now?

Hiiiiiiiii -

Where to begin?

It's been a weird year.

One year ago, in late August, I deleted the original blog that was formerly known as Sarah Petruno Shamanism.

Since then, I've answered or received the question, a million times - why did I delete it? Why couldn't I just let it stay as a resource? 

So, let's talk about it. Where it went and why it's not coming back in the same form that it was.

I can only tell a short portion of the story right now, without taking you back 20 years of my list history and integrating that with the part of my life that's currently unfolding.

I'll do the best I can, but please know this is only one small snapshot of the entire story. Maybe one day I'll write a book, but today is not that day. 😉

I started my first blog in the fall of 2013, Earth Energy Healings.

Then, in the summer of 2014, I created my second blog, Sarah Petruno Shamanism.

I blogged mostly in secret. Hoping the people I knew in my real life wouldn't find me. Hoping that people wouldn't see this part of myself that I had decided was weird, strange, and unacceptable.

I wrote about shamanism, energy healing, and my own personal healing journey, all as I was learning myself.

Then in the fall of 2015, after my second child was born, I started to get really, really sick. Horrible back and abdominal pain. We didn't have insurance at the time, so I couldn't really get it checked out.

One night, hunched over the toilet in pain, I got the divine message that it was gallstones, but I brushed it off as myself spending too much time playing Dr. Google.

I went vegan. I did a million liver gallbladder flushes, and it mostly went away.

Until it came back in mid-2017, and by then, we had insurance.

In June 2017, I landed myself in the ER and the diagnosis came back - I needed my gallbladder out and I wasn't leaving that hospital until it was gone.

I stayed in the hospital for 5 days.

I'll spare you all the spiritual and shamanic work I had done on myself in the intervening years, but as I did, I  kept the blog up. I kept writing. I kept sharing about healing techniques and strategies.

I received a million divine messages during that time, on what caused it, what didn't, what I needed to do, what I needed to stop doing - and after I had my gallbladder out, I went inward on a soul searching journey to figure out how it had gotten to that point.

Then, 2 months after my gallbladder was removed, I realized that my blog had gotten so much, and so many people were visiting it every day, that I was having trouble clearing my energy.

So I deleted the blog. In August 2017.

My own lack of energetic boundaries, and other people's connection to my energy through the blog, was making me sick.

Let me be clear: me getting sick wasn't anyone else's fault.

At the time, I thought I was carrying the weight of so many people who visited my blog looking for healing. And perhaps that was partly true, but now, I realize that I wanted to help those people, and everyone, so badly, that I energetically let it happen.

I allowed it.

Do I blame myself? No, because I didn't know otherwise. I thought I was doing a service, and spiritually and energetically, I wanted to help everyone who came to my blog. I let them in. And then, because of the way I set it up, I had a hard time clearing my energy. Impossible, really, because of the way I'd set up the energy.

But, I also want to be clear that a year later, I've been practically diagnosed with an autoimmune condition (more on that later) that has likely been in the works my whole life, and that that was part of the initial illness, unbeknownst to me.

Like anything, there are a million pieces at play, and I've looked at many of them, but not all as this journey is still unfolding. Food, diet, lifestyle, spiritual underpinnings, shamanic influences, chemicals - seriously, I'm going there.

The blog, as it was before, played a role, and it was due to my own boundaries and not being clear with them and my energy surrounding the blog. Which was part of my soul lessons to learn - I can't heal/help everyone. Both logistically, and energetically.

So, where does that leave us?

It means the original blog is gone. If you've come looking for an article you saw on pinterest, it's gone. 

I'm not going to dig those articles up and repost them.

I want to keep writing, at least for me. And if you'd like to read them, welcome.

I'll be setting up my boundaries differently this time.

I can't help everyone.

I can't heal everyone.

And I don't want to. 

My energy stays with me, and accepts none from this blog, or any other.

I intend to continue being a lighthouse (as are all of you), projecting divine energy and love outward and all around me.

This blog won't just be shamanism based, but it will likely have a spiritual twist when I feel like adding one.

I'll be writing about my own healing journey, oils, and whatever else suits me on any given day.

If you've been around from the beginning, welcome back.

If you're new here, hello.

xo,

Sarah


Comments

  1. So Glad to see your back, and to see an explanation as to why you disappeared. I get that its what you needed to do to get clear on your energy. I was worried that something had happened to you, when everything disappeared without a trace, it was so sudden. -Lauren Torres www.shamanlinks.net

    ReplyDelete
  2. Besides having a total meltdown and needing to completely disappear lol, nothing happened. I just needed to clear my energy and regroup. It was an intense time! But I'm still around and here! Glad to see you, Lauren!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular Posts